today i decided to die

today i decided to die.

to free myself from the heartaches people inflict on me..
to free myself from the probability of inflicting pain on others..
to free myself from the routinary cycle of life..
to free myself from the neverending troubles and stress..
to free myself from the pains of this world..

to simply be free.

today i decided to die.

but..
i felt the love my family and friends gives me..
i felt the the warm smile of a stranger
i felt the pain of losing someone..
i felt the injustice in this world..

i felt..

what it feels like to be truly alive..

today i decided to live.